Lockdown!

Welcome to week 10 of lockdown in our household! G is in her element (namely NOT at school), I have realised I’m better at teaching a class of 30 than my own 7 year old, and H just wants to go to the farm to see his friends!

How is G coping in lockdown?
SHE LOVES IT! She really doesn’t like school, has massive anxieties and her sleep is greatly affected when she’s at school. Since lockdown began she’s been asleep by 8:30 most nights-MIRACLE..... she doesn’t come downstairs a gazillion times each evening, and I don’t have huge meltdowns getting her out of the door in the mornings. That said, she is a nightmare to teach!! Some days we are lucky to get 30 minutes done. As maths is her weakest subject, and my primary teaching specialism, maths is our main aim. 5 days a week of 1-2-1 maths for 15/20 minutes and I’m happy. Sometimes we get some writing and reading done, maybe even spellings (not all on the same day though!).

As for the rest, we do gardening, cooking, painting, growing vegetables, woodland walks, woodwork, art, gymnastics, singing, bashing the piano, applying for Blue Peter badges and lots more. Not in a bragging way, in a ‘this is what we’d normally do’ way. And don’t be fooled, inbetween each and every one of those activities is bickering, fighting, talking back, screen time, more bickering, bossing around and general sass!! Oh, and I’M HUNGRY more times than I can count. I’m sure the food bill has doubled!

What have we missed?
G had a fair few appointments scheduled this past few months, so we instead had 1 rescheduled (ears), and 2 phone appointments. One phone appointment replaced G’s annual heart scan, NOT ideal, but couldn’t be helped. We usually make a fairly lengthy journey to Oxford John Radcliffe for her heart checks, but a phone appointment to check nothing untoward is happening resulted in a rescheduling for October. October is looking fairly busy now-Ears, Heart, a rearranged birthday present to watch one of G’s favourite kids bands, a holiday (we hope!), a wedding and an endocrine paediatric appointment.

The other phone appointment was our long awaited-14 months-with the community paediatric consultant to discuss G’s traits of Autism and ADHD. The phone call with a rather upset consultant revealed that we literally had fallen off their radar and we need to start the whole process again. AGGHHHHHHHH! She was incredibly apologetic, and herself disappointed in the process, but I guess at least we are on the right track again.

We’ve also missed several weddings and hen dos,  a few mini breaks including to G’s favourite caravan site, and a number of birthdays and celebrations. But it’s ok. We’re ok. Some days we’re amazing. Some days we’re not, but that’s normal right? Totally. We have each other, and health. We have loving family and incredible neighbours. Talk about community spirit! I’m even managing church online and recording the odd bit of piano when I can. It’s good, it’s positive. And when it’s not that’s ok too.

So, to continued lockdown, to a few more muted birthday celebrations, but also perhaps even to a little bit of normality again soon...... 

The Chase

Sometimes life can feel a little bit like you're on a treadmill, struggling to keep up. That feeling of constantly chasing. I've had that this past month. 
When you're the parent of a child that has a condition that isn't common, and thus doesn't always have a huge amount of knowledge or info out in the pubic domain, YOU become the expert. You become the one chasing for this and pushing for that.

Generally, a vast amount of G's care runs like clockwork...her Ear, Nose and Throat clinic send us a new appointment within a week of her most recent appointment, as do her Opthalmology clinic, her eye consultant, her general paeditrician and usually her endocrine consultants for her growth.
HOWEVER, anything extra, anything that has cropped up or anything that may not be on the radar of her current consultants, can result in me constantly needing to chase people.

Currently I have been needing to chase a 24 hour blood pressure monitor since G's blood pressure was consistently higher than average back in March/April/May of LAST YEAR. Last year! 5 year olds don't generally struggle with high blood pressure, but 5 year olds with Turner Syndrome can...meaning I have needed to chase.

G's heart check is due in March. Usually we have the appointment months in advance as a consultant from a specialist hospital travels up to run the clinic. But no appointment. Most 5 year olds don't need a heart check, but a 5 year old with Turner Syndrome does. G's checks are currently annual as although one heart condition rectified itself (hallelujah!), a slight abnormaility was noted last year. An abnormailty which needs regular checks. Thus I have needed to chase.

And as for the ugly monster that is anxiety, my goodness we can't seem to get the better of that yet.
THANKFULLY after several phonecalls, voicemails and a plea to various other paeditrician's sececretaries to get someone - ANYONE -to get in touch with me, I finally got a call to discuss our concerns. Our paeditrician is great, she will generally follow my lead and will do anything for us. It just sometimes has to be MY lead. So:

1. 24 hour blood pressure monitor booked (it best work this time!).
2. Cardiac consultant contacted to chase up the heartscan/echo.
3. Referral made to community paediatrician regarding anxiety, and also various traits which G displays.

I also put a plea in to school regarding G's anxiety, and many other 'little' things which actually all add together and on some days can become overwhelming for little G. We are hoping these will be addressed with time, but knowing the education system myself I do know that it may not be imminently due to budgets and other constraints. On the radar at least. 

Gosh, my head has felt like it has been ready to explode. It usually does - that meme that is doing the rounds on social media rings true: my mind is like my internet browser - I've got 18 tabs open, 4 of them are frozen and I have no idea where that music is coming from! 

So how is our beautiful G?

She is good! Growing so well thanks to the magic growing juice. I'm constantly on ebay getting bigger clothes.

Feb and March are pretty heavy in terms of of hospital appointments, but that's the norm for us.

 Our brave babe finally had THAT blood test, and thankfully the results came back as normal.

Tummy aches are a huge problem at the moment, but we are likely looking at it now as a physical manifestation of anxiety. 

She still adores little H, they are thick as thieves sometimes. Especially the time they both drew all over G's bedsheet in green pen..., 

Yes we have our ups and downs, our major meltdowns, but actually that is also the norm for us. 

Nobody need judge their lives on what is the norm for others. Everyone's normal is different <3

Miracles

Hearts are phenomenal. They beat around 110,000 times a day (for an average adult) and pump around 2,000 gallons of blood around our body. Did you know that the youngest person ever to have heart surgery was only a minute old?!

I remember when we first were told of G’s Turner syndrome, we focused on the life and death statistics, the ‘only 1-2% survive pregnancy’ statistic. Initially there was no mention of cardiac function. Cardiac problems. So when were were sent to Oxford’s John Radcliffe hospital for our first uterine heart scan (roughly at the mid point of my pregnancy), I was terrified. Why? What problems were they anticipating? It must be major if they aren't even waiting until she’s born. Luckily for us, for G, some of the common problems associated with TS (namely coarctation-narrowing-of the aorta) were not affecting our unborn babe.
We do know of girls, friends, within the Turner Syndrome family who’ve had surgery when several days old. I couldn't imagine the fear their dear parents would have felt.

So today’s fear over G’s third (or is it even fourth?!) scan in her little five years seemed somewhat irrational. At the last scan we were told her patent foreman ovule (hole) had finally closed, and that she had some slight abnormality if the aorta. But generally it was good news...

But it’s her heart. Our precious girl's heart. Hearts are the life and soul of the body. And heart problems can develop over time with TS, so we can’t be complacent. 

Now as mentioned in previous posts, G is beyond petrified when it comes to anything medical. So we knew that today would be a challenge. She screams the department down at every appointment regardless of whether anyone is touching her. Darn, today they needed her to be perfectly still, not hyperventilating and not trying to kick anyone that holds her down. Especially not the consultant. Prayers were needed. 

When the tantrums started earlier in the week, we knew why. The tears at bedtime, the anxious tummy, the not wanting to go to school, or eat her tea. It was all the pre-echocardiogram build up. The anxiety was through the roof.

So you’ll imagine our shock today when her name was called. No tears. When she strolled into the room after the consultant. No tears. When she laid as still as a statue on the bed, when they squeezed the cold jelly on to her chest,  and then performed the scan. No tears. For me it was one of those jaw hits the floor moments. 15 minutes later, scan over, not a single tear.  Shocked doesn’t even sum it up. A miracle for our miracle. Thank you for your prayers!

Results: a slight asymmetry of the aortic valve (which should look like a Mercedes badge, but in G’s case it’s uneven), but that’s all. Next echo when she turns 7. 

Phew. Thank God. The relief was almost overwhelming. 

TS maths research 

We’ve had the loveliest researcher from Cambridge University come and work with G recently. Rosie is conducting a study into maths difficulties and is focusing on Turner Syndrome (around 50% of our girls struggle with maths), and also people with discalculia. Now anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE maths, so I’m incredibly intrigued by this research. I can’t wait to read the findings!

First school assembly 

This morning before we whisked G off to her heart scan, she had her first ever class assembly. Eeeek! As a teacher they were always a huge stress of mine, but parents love seeing their children perform. Today’s was amazing. Nothing special to Joe Bloggs- it wasn’t all singing or all dancing,  but I thought it was outstanding.

TS SOAR study 

For the past few years at the TS conference we’ve been joined by Professor Skuse and his team from Great Ormond Street Hospital Institute of Health. They been conducting research into the wellbeing and behaviours of girls and ladies with Turner Syndrome. As G had recently turned 5, we are now eligible to take part. The beauty of this study is not only does it raise awareness of non-physical elements of TS, but it paves the way for future interventions that could help our girls in/with everyday life.

It’s all about the research and the knowledge. Knowledge is power!

In other news...
G didn't have to wait until she was 17 to get her first car, nope her Uncle surprised her for her fifth birthday. Not just any car either - a Mini. Now driving is quite a worry for us TS parents, especially knowing that spatial awareness can be problematic. However she’s managed to navigate herself around most obstacles. For now!

G had a hair cut, and didn't scream. This is big news. Are you spotting a theme today?! Still screams when her nails are cut though...

We are off to G's favourite holiday haunt soon. Lots of caravan fun with the family. Admittedly we all need a break, and we love caravans :) I'm not so sure how the rest of the site will cope with a babe who's up all night...nope not G, but H. Good job I have 5 years experience of a non-sleeper on my mumma CV!

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