With today being world mental health day, I thought I'd share with you a commonality between myself and my daughter (and her Turner Syndrome).....ANXIETY.
Anxiety is like a little creature nestled away in the corner of your mind, ready to rear it's ugly head at any given moment. You don't need to be feeling down for anxiety to take hold. You don't need to be stressed or anxious for a panic attack to occur-I've had one snuggled up under a warm blanket with a hot cuppa watching Saturday night TV.
More often than not my mind is full to bursting. I joke that I cannot cram any more in, that my head hurts. But it's NOT a joke. It's reality. Every day.
Today it goes something like this....... school run stress-finding a parking space, not being late, baby not fed as much as normal, will school call again about my big girl being upset? Money worries, always money worries, leaving the house in time to make it to bible study, baby feeding on time so I can leave the house for school pick up, big girl's health, always worry about big girl's health, no job, money worries as no job, can't keep up with the washing, ironing hasn't been done in an age, big girl needs a photo for school of her playing sport, big girl's hospital appointments, not locking the front door, baby's sleep, baby's poops, giving baby enough stimulation, husband's job, my car breaking down, husbands happiness, everyone's happiness, cleaning the house, ordering big girl's injections, reading big girl's most recent report from her most recent assessment, leaving the iron on, the dog running away on a walk, worse still the dog being stolen, my mobile being cut off, after her assessment-doing the suggested activities and exercises with big girl, washing the bed clothes, writing my CV, writing this post and sharing my struggles.... and that's just a snippet of what is in my head right now.
And that is minus my irrational thoughts-the ones I often dare not share for fear of judgement. The 'what if?' thoughts.... what if someone kidnaps my children? What if I die today and leave my children without a mother, my husband without a wife?
Much of the worries seem trivial. The 'what ifs' are HIGHLY unlikely. But to a sufferer-one with panic anxiety disorder-it's ALL important. It's all pressing. It's all exhausting.
I try and ground myself sometimes-there are people starving, homeless, caught up in the horror that is war, genocide. But it doesn't work. I worry more!
I'm soooooo tired. But not just physically, mentally and emotionally too.
That feeling of being on a treadmill when you can't keep up and you might fall off at any time. Only you don't fall off as you find enough energy to keep up, you have enough love and happiness in your life to make you want to keep up.
Busy places, chaos, I can't deal with it. Big cities are a no no. Shopping centres are overwhelming. Even the small, enclosed concrete playground require a like it or lump it approach at pick up time. How my husband longs to take me away for a city theatre break, like we used to in our younger days. But the money and crowds and potential threats? And the kids, I CAN'T leave the kids overnight! How I'd LOVE to be anxiety free.
I worry for my big girl. Anxiety is a family trait, it is a Turner Syndrome trait. She worries so much already-about who will pick her up, about friendships, about her hospital appointments, about her school book being changed as she's already read it twice, about when the boiler was last checked!
So do me a favour....when someone opens up to you and says that they suffer with anxiety, don't dismiss it. Don't dismiss them. Anxiety is real, and it's far bigger and far more crippling than you may have ever imagined. Far more of your friends and family suffer than you probably realise.
P.S. With the above in mind, I'm ok. I really am. I function perfectly well on a day to day basis and I've worked within what is known to be a very stressful profession for the last ten years. 99% of the time I know how to deal with my anxiety. I know how to keep it in check. And that 1% of the time I can't, I know who is there to help me.
Tuesday, 10 October 2017
Monday, 2 October 2017
When did we last have our boiler checked?
I'm sure sometimes that she is four going on forty....
She also declared during one of our numerous car journeys that when people fall out they should just say sorry at exactly the same time and go back to being friends.
When did she get so grown up? So wise? So anxious about the state of our boiler!!
When she needs or wants something, such as a new car seat, she asks if we'll have enough money left over from daddy's wages. Even offering to use her own money. When did she become so thoughtful?
Often we forget that our mini babes are like sponges, they soak up everything around them. The good, the bad, and the rest.
I THINK I'D RATHER STAY AT HOME WITH YOU AND H TODAY....
Oh babe, school doesn't work like that, you can't just pick and choose!
Four weeks in and she's loving school. But she's shattered. She's caught every germ going, doesn't have the greatest attendance rate already and has even had a brief stint in hospital. It sure is knocking the stuffing out of her.
CONFERENCE TIME!!
It's nearly upon us, the annual visit to the best gig in town-the annual Turner Syndrome Support Society conference. I know I say it every year, but it's the one place I (as a TS mum) feel truly at home. We are looking forward to an action packed couple of days, though perhaps not so much looking forward to hours and hours on the M6 with a young baby.
APPOINTMENT UPDATE
So the eagerly awaited endocrine appointment to asses the impact of her growth hormone was, wait for it, cancelled. Hmm. Can't be helped I guess! Now to chase up a replacement appointment.
Physiotherapy was more successful-firstly it wasn't cancelled, and secondly she doesn't need physio!! Her initial assessment led to some rather surprising results: no balance or coordination issues, good muscle tone, surprising physical strength and good body control. Who'd have thought? She's the clumsiest child going!
Tomorrow sees G attend an hour long occupational therapy assessment. A number of issues to be explored include:
Taste and texture, sensitivity to noise, sensitity to clothing and labels, fine motor skills, mini obsessions, need for routine.... the list is endless, and may amount to something, or nothing.
As always we are so blessed with the care we get from the NHS. Recently I saw a US Turner syndrome post regarding the cost of growth hormone in the US... nearly 26,000 dollars for ten months worth of hormone. MAN ALIVE how lucky we are to get the ESSENTIALS for our girls on the NHS.
And on that note it's time for me and H to run-G's harvest festival service commences in 30 minutes and I'm a total stress head when it comes to school mum related activities (primarily getting there on time and parking!).
Sunday, 10 September 2017
Tomorrow marks the first day of...
.....G being off sick from school. GUTTED.
This past week my social media has been flooded with first day pictures. And tomorrow I'd have joined the brigade of proud parents by showing off our girl on her first day of big school (remembering of course to take internet safety into account!).
However.....it's that time of year where our babe starts to pick up whatever germs are doing the rounds. Result? Mummy having to call in sick for her. On her FIRST day.
Some sort of upper respiratory virus and a urinary tract infection are the culprits of G's ridiculously high (40 degree +) temperature. In true G style, it all came on suddenly and when usual 9-5 GP services are non operational. Thank goodness for our local walk in centre, they are amazing.
Hopefully after a couple of doses of antibiotics and some much needed rest, she'll be able to start on Tuesday or Wednesday.
Poor sausage, she has been counting down for literally the past 63 days (tick chart and all). I'd even had to experiment with stain remover on her new uniform due to her insistence on roleplaying her first week of school. It has been a long summer holiday!
In other news:
We've a frenzy of appointments coming up.... eyes (to further assess G's short sightedness), ears (only one infection in the past year!!), physio assessment (balance and coordination issues), occupational therapy assessment (sensory issues) and the much anticipated first growth check with the endocrinologist.
Can you believe it's been nearly six months since we embarked on the daily growth injection journey?! Our first significant milestone in our walk with Turner Syndrome. Daily injections are now a part of G's routine, and we've even managed to knock the daily reward sweet on the head too. Our babe continues to amaze us on a daily basis.
The countdown is on-Annual Turner Syndrome Conferenc commences in 25 days....Can.Not.Wait! Old friends, new friends, giggles, tears, food, dancing, AMAZING workshops and guest speakers, and for one weekend only a chance to feel like we are with people who have walked our walk. People who 'get' us, and G.
So that's another round-up complete. Fingers crossed for a slightly delayed but nonetheless amazing start to her first academic year at infant school. This was a day that at one point I wasn't even sure we'd ever experience. Our little miracle!
This past week my social media has been flooded with first day pictures. And tomorrow I'd have joined the brigade of proud parents by showing off our girl on her first day of big school (remembering of course to take internet safety into account!).
However.....it's that time of year where our babe starts to pick up whatever germs are doing the rounds. Result? Mummy having to call in sick for her. On her FIRST day.
Some sort of upper respiratory virus and a urinary tract infection are the culprits of G's ridiculously high (40 degree +) temperature. In true G style, it all came on suddenly and when usual 9-5 GP services are non operational. Thank goodness for our local walk in centre, they are amazing.
Hopefully after a couple of doses of antibiotics and some much needed rest, she'll be able to start on Tuesday or Wednesday.
Poor sausage, she has been counting down for literally the past 63 days (tick chart and all). I'd even had to experiment with stain remover on her new uniform due to her insistence on roleplaying her first week of school. It has been a long summer holiday!
In other news:
We've a frenzy of appointments coming up.... eyes (to further assess G's short sightedness), ears (only one infection in the past year!!), physio assessment (balance and coordination issues), occupational therapy assessment (sensory issues) and the much anticipated first growth check with the endocrinologist.
Can you believe it's been nearly six months since we embarked on the daily growth injection journey?! Our first significant milestone in our walk with Turner Syndrome. Daily injections are now a part of G's routine, and we've even managed to knock the daily reward sweet on the head too. Our babe continues to amaze us on a daily basis.
The countdown is on-Annual Turner Syndrome Conferenc commences in 25 days....Can.Not.Wait! Old friends, new friends, giggles, tears, food, dancing, AMAZING workshops and guest speakers, and for one weekend only a chance to feel like we are with people who have walked our walk. People who 'get' us, and G.
So that's another round-up complete. Fingers crossed for a slightly delayed but nonetheless amazing start to her first academic year at infant school. This was a day that at one point I wasn't even sure we'd ever experience. Our little miracle!
Wednesday, 23 August 2017
After G comes H....
Just shy of three months ago, G finally became a big sister! A moment she's been waiting for for at least the past two years, and one that she has treasured every day since little H came along. She is well and truly in love, and a total mini mother in the making.
Life felt chaotic for much of the past few months, but we are slowly adjusting to life as four (sorry Black fur baby-life as 5!). G takes every opportunity to shower her baby brother with affection, to inspect the dirty nappies with a fine tooth comb and also to poke and prod her sleeping brother at the most crucial of moments....like when he's finally fallen asleep after what seems like hours of coaxing!
It's hard to imagine how life used to be, partly because my brain doesn't have the capacity to do much at the moment. But sometimes I do fondly remember the days when I wasn't yelling at G to shush, or telling her I couldn't play football right now because little H was feeding, or that she'd have to wait for a cug. Being a big sister comes with its set backs. I have learned to cug and feed, it's important for G to know that she is still adored.
Appointment updates:
Eyes: It seems that G may be heading towards becoming spectacle wearing babe. She's longed for glasses for some time, but the realisation that this may be a dream come true has resulted in it no longer being a dream of hers! Follow up appointment in November to ascertain whether her short-sightedness has indeed resulted in the need to wear glasses.
Community paediatrician: G's annual appointment was as always a positive experience. Our paediatrician is 100% understanding of our concerns, which currently include many aspects which sit under the umbrella of sensory processing disorder. When I'm a little less sleep deprived I will delve a little deeper into this but the general gist is that the nervous system doesn't necessarily receive messages form our senses in the correct manor and thus the body's response/behaviour to them is not as it should be/what we would expect. Currently we are awaiting a referral to both occupational health (for sensory processing disorder) and physio (for her clumsiness, and issues with fine motor skills). The paediatrician has included G's new school in her post-appointment report which hopefully paves the way for a positive and open relationship between ourselves, the health professionals and the school.
In other news...
G starts school in September! I cannot wait-mainly because she is so incredibly excited (and ready). But also because her teacher can answer the barrage of increasingly difficult questions that I face on a daily basis. Some of my favourites include- what's so flappy about flapjack? How much pollen do bees collect each day? Do geese get goose bumps? And the age old question of how daddy put baby H in my tummy...
The girl is growing! Hurrah for the ankle swinging joggers, the tight trainers and the fast becoming set of crop tops that once were t-shirts. (By the way babe-this is the only time in your life daddy will be likely to let you wear tops that show off your midriff!). We are due to see the endocrinologist in September to assess the impact of the first six months of growth hormone.
I'm sure there is so much more to share, but I'm frazzled. Little H has been asleep for the past hour and a half and I'll be kicking myself if I don't use this time wisely. Night all!
Ps Thank you to everyone for your cards, gifts, delicious dinners, well wishes and prayers, especially during the time of my surgery with little H. It was a miracle that all went so smoothly given my complications.
It's hard to imagine how life used to be, partly because my brain doesn't have the capacity to do much at the moment. But sometimes I do fondly remember the days when I wasn't yelling at G to shush, or telling her I couldn't play football right now because little H was feeding, or that she'd have to wait for a cug. Being a big sister comes with its set backs. I have learned to cug and feed, it's important for G to know that she is still adored.
Appointment updates:
Eyes: It seems that G may be heading towards becoming spectacle wearing babe. She's longed for glasses for some time, but the realisation that this may be a dream come true has resulted in it no longer being a dream of hers! Follow up appointment in November to ascertain whether her short-sightedness has indeed resulted in the need to wear glasses.
Community paediatrician: G's annual appointment was as always a positive experience. Our paediatrician is 100% understanding of our concerns, which currently include many aspects which sit under the umbrella of sensory processing disorder. When I'm a little less sleep deprived I will delve a little deeper into this but the general gist is that the nervous system doesn't necessarily receive messages form our senses in the correct manor and thus the body's response/behaviour to them is not as it should be/what we would expect. Currently we are awaiting a referral to both occupational health (for sensory processing disorder) and physio (for her clumsiness, and issues with fine motor skills). The paediatrician has included G's new school in her post-appointment report which hopefully paves the way for a positive and open relationship between ourselves, the health professionals and the school.
In other news...
G starts school in September! I cannot wait-mainly because she is so incredibly excited (and ready). But also because her teacher can answer the barrage of increasingly difficult questions that I face on a daily basis. Some of my favourites include- what's so flappy about flapjack? How much pollen do bees collect each day? Do geese get goose bumps? And the age old question of how daddy put baby H in my tummy...
The girl is growing! Hurrah for the ankle swinging joggers, the tight trainers and the fast becoming set of crop tops that once were t-shirts. (By the way babe-this is the only time in your life daddy will be likely to let you wear tops that show off your midriff!). We are due to see the endocrinologist in September to assess the impact of the first six months of growth hormone.
I'm sure there is so much more to share, but I'm frazzled. Little H has been asleep for the past hour and a half and I'll be kicking myself if I don't use this time wisely. Night all!
Ps Thank you to everyone for your cards, gifts, delicious dinners, well wishes and prayers, especially during the time of my surgery with little H. It was a miracle that all went so smoothly given my complications.
Thursday, 18 May 2017
Problematic platelets
I'm pretty sure that just over four years ago, I had a post with a similar title! Thankfully this title doesn't relate to our gorgeous little G, just me.
The past few weeks have been relatively uneventful for G...a snotty cold here, some more lack of sleep there, lots of loving cuddles with bump, farm visits, fun times at Pre-School, and a trip to BIG school. No medical appointments either for G, so that has been amazing. Just a routine trip to the dentist tomorrow.
Her injections are also going incredibly well. She really is a superstar and we've now trialled many scenarios including: injections without mummy; injections without daddy; and injections without a bath first. I dare not say we've nailed it, but we are over the moon at how she has adapted to life with daily growth hormone injections. The amount of bribery sweets being used, less happy!
Speaking of school - G's new big school have been incredible already. I have met with the deputy head and the SENCo, given them a one page profile of G and her Turner Syndrome, discussed potential issues that may arise, and planned a couple of familiarisation visits (outside of what they'd normally provide). What I love the MOST, is that they said they don't want to label her and look for problems, but equally they want to be informed enough that when an issue arises they can potentially attribute it to her TS (if it is relevant) and come to us to advice. Next stop, a transfer day, a parents information evening and a story visit. EEEK!
Also with regards to school, I've finally given in to the advice of the medical professionals and commenced maternity leave early. It was a bit of an anti-climax, it certainly wasn't how I had planned it, and I am missing my lovely village school very much. However I had to listen to those who know best. That's sometimes a bitter pill to swallow.
The past few weeks have been relatively uneventful for G...a snotty cold here, some more lack of sleep there, lots of loving cuddles with bump, farm visits, fun times at Pre-School, and a trip to BIG school. No medical appointments either for G, so that has been amazing. Just a routine trip to the dentist tomorrow.
Her injections are also going incredibly well. She really is a superstar and we've now trialled many scenarios including: injections without mummy; injections without daddy; and injections without a bath first. I dare not say we've nailed it, but we are over the moon at how she has adapted to life with daily growth hormone injections. The amount of bribery sweets being used, less happy!
Speaking of school - G's new big school have been incredible already. I have met with the deputy head and the SENCo, given them a one page profile of G and her Turner Syndrome, discussed potential issues that may arise, and planned a couple of familiarisation visits (outside of what they'd normally provide). What I love the MOST, is that they said they don't want to label her and look for problems, but equally they want to be informed enough that when an issue arises they can potentially attribute it to her TS (if it is relevant) and come to us to advice. Next stop, a transfer day, a parents information evening and a story visit. EEEK!
Also with regards to school, I've finally given in to the advice of the medical professionals and commenced maternity leave early. It was a bit of an anti-climax, it certainly wasn't how I had planned it, and I am missing my lovely village school very much. However I had to listen to those who know best. That's sometimes a bitter pill to swallow.
I'm sure you're all wondering about our imminent arrival....
Well baby boy has been causing more than few sleepless nights! My platelet levels have now dropped lower than they did with G (and they were low), which coupled with a complication involving my placenta means that having low platelets and a poor ability to clot during/after my caesarean is far from ideal. Fairly dangerous infact. I'm in the process of having steroid injections to strengthen baby's lungs in preparation for him potentially being whipped out early, and very regular blood tests to trace my platelets. Trips to the hospital are more than frequent now and the car parking is extortionate!! Back again tomorrow.
As they say 'forewarned is forearmed', and the hospital have lots of procedures they can and will put in place on the day. Not only that but lots of support from family, friends, church, along with an abundance of prayers have finally allowed me to be a little more at peace with all of these complications. G was a little miracle - our little 2%, we're in good hands again.
Signing off today as my last blog as a mum of one, my next post will be as a mum of two!!
Wednesday, 26 April 2017
Superstar DJ!
Ok so the post title bares little resemblance to today's blog, other than the fact that G is a TOTAL superstar. All that is now going round my head is the 90's Chemical Brothers tune!
We are now 27 days in to daily growth hormone injections and boy what a rollercoaster. At times I didn't know how we were going to ever make this a 'normal' part of G's life, especially not for the next ten plus years. But what a turn around. My hormones took over yesterday and I got a tad emotional....not only had she completed 6 days TEARS FREE, but last night Daddy and G did the whole injection process without mummy. Sniff!
Up until now I had been chief hugger, and any mention of me swapping to chief injector, or not being part of the process at all was met with instant dismissal and tears. However with the prospect looming of me being admitted to hospital early for baby boy (along with an extended stay due to complications), we knew that the job of chief hugger needed to passed on to someone equally as cuddly-and with a huge tummy like mummy! Who better than Pooh bear?! So last night when Winnie the Pooh took over my role, I felt a tinge of sadness, along with elation at how far she'd come in just under four weeks.
Tonight, Pooh bear again filled mummy's big boots, and G managed another tear-free injection with just her and Daddy. Sniff!
We are now 27 days in to daily growth hormone injections and boy what a rollercoaster. At times I didn't know how we were going to ever make this a 'normal' part of G's life, especially not for the next ten plus years. But what a turn around. My hormones took over yesterday and I got a tad emotional....not only had she completed 6 days TEARS FREE, but last night Daddy and G did the whole injection process without mummy. Sniff!
Up until now I had been chief hugger, and any mention of me swapping to chief injector, or not being part of the process at all was met with instant dismissal and tears. However with the prospect looming of me being admitted to hospital early for baby boy (along with an extended stay due to complications), we knew that the job of chief hugger needed to passed on to someone equally as cuddly-and with a huge tummy like mummy! Who better than Pooh bear?! So last night when Winnie the Pooh took over my role, I felt a tinge of sadness, along with elation at how far she'd come in just under four weeks.
Tonight, Pooh bear again filled mummy's big boots, and G managed another tear-free injection with just her and Daddy. Sniff!
It really is incredible to think that under a month ago, our evenings were filled with 'I HATE INJECTIONS' 'WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE THEM?' 'PLEASE DON'T DO IT'....and now they are all smiles, stickers, magic glittery ice cubes, and a shed load of sweets. Bribery/rewards have played a vital role in this process, as has a nice relaxed routine which G will now refuse to deviate from. Warm bath, Mum and Dad's bed, inject dolly first (yep, a real injection - well a demo pen filled with saline), cuddles, magic ice cube for 30 seconds, sing a nursery rhyme, inject and count to 6, two stories and bed. Bingo!
We don't have an appointment with our paediatrician until July, or with our endocrinologist until around November, so it will be some time before we can start to assess the impact of the growth hormone. However it won't stop G from standing against her wall chart on a daily basis, asking if she's grown. Today the little monkey stood on top of her stool and announced she'd made it past 100cm. Hehehe!
In other news:
- G has taken great delight in helping to prepare for the arrival of her baby brother - choosing wall stickers, helping to touch up the paint work, building the cot and of course sorting through a mountain of baby clothes (courtesy of friends, and my incredibly well-dressed nephew who will only be 9 months older than babe).
- No appointments until July!! Mind you the amount of appointments I'm having is more than making up for it, but at least it's a break for G.
- G has a place at infant school. WAAAAAAH! I'm actually going in to school for a meeting regarding G's Turner Syndrome next week as it is highly likely that I'll be out of action for G's induction and the parent consultations. Darn pregnancy complications.
-Pink, girly, princesses, fairies and more pink. What has happened to our tomboy? She's turning pinker by the day!
Tomboy, or pink girly girl, footballer or princess, she's our superstar and we are so incredibly proud of her. LOVE YOU!
Saturday, 1 April 2017
Growth hormone injection - day 2!
So when I said in my last blog that we were ready to rock 'n' roll with regards to G's daily growth hormone injections, I was wrong. So very wrong! Umpteen phone calls later, one desperate cry for help to the Turner Syndrome Support Society, and we finally resolved the problems (funding, postcodes, small hospital - you get the picture). The training date was set - Friday 31st March.
Thursday was an interesting day to say the least....the main theme of the day was that Friday DID NOT come after Thursday. Despite singing her days of the week song, she then vehemently denied Friday as fast approaching. On top of this, there was a tantrum about everything. LITERALLY. Me coming down the stairs first, opening the curtains and the sun being too bright, shoes, food, everything. Eventually the root cause of the issue was identified - the endocrine nurse was coming to train us up, and start the growth hormone injections the day after. Friday.
Pre-school was a welcomed distraction on Friday morning, as was the iPad when G returned home. Shortly after lunch, our designated nurse arrived, and the tears came thick and fast! Thankfully as there was some paper work, as well as training on a pretend bum first, G soon realised that nothing bad was happening. Yet. Mummy, Daddy, and 3 family members took part in the training, whereby we all tested some dummy injection pens on our own bodies. At the end of the session we signed the paper work to state that the training had taken place and hey presto we were done, or so I thought. But our nurse needed to see us actually inject G before he left....
Well, I'm surprised that our windows didn't shatter with the screaming that ensued. I was chief hugger (I guess it's the child-friendly version of 'pinner-downer'), and daddy was injector. Only G was so strong and so determined to not be injected that the needle came out THREE times, and the nurse stepped in to help us to keep her still. Fourth time lucky, and we were done. How I did not cry myself I do not know! Pregnancy hormones + the thought of causing pain to your precious child = potential blubbering mess! (and actually, I was later that evening).
HOWEVER, within 5 seconds she was up, and asking for her surprise. Within two minutes said surprise was open, and a sparkly pair of pink high tops were already on G's feet. Ten minutes later and we were happily waving goodbye to our visitors. One hour later were eating dinner in our local Italian. Emotion overload!
Fast forward to this evening. Our new routine under way - bath time to soften the skin and calm G down, and then injection time. G wanted to use the dummy pen to inject Lola (the training dolly) first, and then the tears came. This time accompanied with pleas of 'please don't do it, I don't want my injection, it hurts!'. Where was my rock to crawl under and hide?? We rubbed G's skin with the red, sparkly magic ice cube which we had made earlier in the day (thanks Gem - amazing idea), and it was hug time. Injection went in first time, we counted to the magic number of six, and bingo. Tears stopped immediately, and G announced that it hurt far less than yesterday, in fact the magic ice cube made it not hurt at all. And Daddy already seems a pro at administering it - he's doing far better than I would. Progress...The nurse thinks that it will all be the norm within 7 days, and that the tears will be a thing of the past. We'll see!
In other news:
- She is four! How is she four? It feels like she has been part of our family forever, yet it only seems like yesterday that I was worrying each day that I would miscarry. We adore our little G, and made it our mission to ensure that she had the best birthday, and didn't she just.
- We had a lovely family weekend away to the caravan in Norfolk. This time we had been upgraded, had lovely balcony and were located in the heart of the woodland. With wildlife on our doorstep, G was up and watching from the balcony at 5:30am every morning. Now I love a good squirrel, and a rabbit or two, but come on G - it was our holiday!
- G has an ENT appointment this week, the first appointment in a good 7 weeks, which is nice. one ear infection during the whole of the Winter, so I expect it to be short and sweet and for them to try and discharge us (as they often do).
- I was spoilt rotten on Mother's day, and one of the best presents was having my car washed. It's a real treat, trust me!
-G is very keen on helping us to prepare for the arrival of her baby sibling. From preparing my hospital bag, to constantly asking what babe is up to, she sure is the doting sister already.
- Thank you for all of the support we've had in the run up to the injections-from cards and mini gifts through the post, to helpful hints, videos messages and general love. G has felt very special and we've much needed the support at times.
So, that is us. I am off to remove the glitter from my hands...downside of magic ice cubes :)
Thursday was an interesting day to say the least....the main theme of the day was that Friday DID NOT come after Thursday. Despite singing her days of the week song, she then vehemently denied Friday as fast approaching. On top of this, there was a tantrum about everything. LITERALLY. Me coming down the stairs first, opening the curtains and the sun being too bright, shoes, food, everything. Eventually the root cause of the issue was identified - the endocrine nurse was coming to train us up, and start the growth hormone injections the day after. Friday.
Pre-school was a welcomed distraction on Friday morning, as was the iPad when G returned home. Shortly after lunch, our designated nurse arrived, and the tears came thick and fast! Thankfully as there was some paper work, as well as training on a pretend bum first, G soon realised that nothing bad was happening. Yet. Mummy, Daddy, and 3 family members took part in the training, whereby we all tested some dummy injection pens on our own bodies. At the end of the session we signed the paper work to state that the training had taken place and hey presto we were done, or so I thought. But our nurse needed to see us actually inject G before he left....
Well, I'm surprised that our windows didn't shatter with the screaming that ensued. I was chief hugger (I guess it's the child-friendly version of 'pinner-downer'), and daddy was injector. Only G was so strong and so determined to not be injected that the needle came out THREE times, and the nurse stepped in to help us to keep her still. Fourth time lucky, and we were done. How I did not cry myself I do not know! Pregnancy hormones + the thought of causing pain to your precious child = potential blubbering mess! (and actually, I was later that evening).
HOWEVER, within 5 seconds she was up, and asking for her surprise. Within two minutes said surprise was open, and a sparkly pair of pink high tops were already on G's feet. Ten minutes later and we were happily waving goodbye to our visitors. One hour later were eating dinner in our local Italian. Emotion overload!
Fast forward to this evening. Our new routine under way - bath time to soften the skin and calm G down, and then injection time. G wanted to use the dummy pen to inject Lola (the training dolly) first, and then the tears came. This time accompanied with pleas of 'please don't do it, I don't want my injection, it hurts!'. Where was my rock to crawl under and hide?? We rubbed G's skin with the red, sparkly magic ice cube which we had made earlier in the day (thanks Gem - amazing idea), and it was hug time. Injection went in first time, we counted to the magic number of six, and bingo. Tears stopped immediately, and G announced that it hurt far less than yesterday, in fact the magic ice cube made it not hurt at all. And Daddy already seems a pro at administering it - he's doing far better than I would. Progress...The nurse thinks that it will all be the norm within 7 days, and that the tears will be a thing of the past. We'll see!
In other news:
- She is four! How is she four? It feels like she has been part of our family forever, yet it only seems like yesterday that I was worrying each day that I would miscarry. We adore our little G, and made it our mission to ensure that she had the best birthday, and didn't she just.
- We had a lovely family weekend away to the caravan in Norfolk. This time we had been upgraded, had lovely balcony and were located in the heart of the woodland. With wildlife on our doorstep, G was up and watching from the balcony at 5:30am every morning. Now I love a good squirrel, and a rabbit or two, but come on G - it was our holiday!
- G has an ENT appointment this week, the first appointment in a good 7 weeks, which is nice. one ear infection during the whole of the Winter, so I expect it to be short and sweet and for them to try and discharge us (as they often do).
- I was spoilt rotten on Mother's day, and one of the best presents was having my car washed. It's a real treat, trust me!
-G is very keen on helping us to prepare for the arrival of her baby sibling. From preparing my hospital bag, to constantly asking what babe is up to, she sure is the doting sister already.
- Thank you for all of the support we've had in the run up to the injections-from cards and mini gifts through the post, to helpful hints, videos messages and general love. G has felt very special and we've much needed the support at times.
So, that is us. I am off to remove the glitter from my hands...downside of magic ice cubes :)
LOVE YOU G!
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